2/6/2020
A little nervous. A little excited. A little out in the open.
Writing is the greatest fear I have. It’s irrational but the paranoia kicked in years ago. So, I am now attempting to lay it all out.
For most of my life, I was a homebody. Unadventurous. Boring. Stagnant. Leaving my home and stepping out isn’t the issue. It isn’t the fact of me physically stepping out from the boundaries of my house. I do that everyday.
It’s the fact that new experiences change my life and change my goals and change my perspective. What if I see and experience something that changes what I know — ME.
This was also irrational. People change. The world changes. I will change. This isn’t new news to me but I hated change. I liked being comfortable . I liked knowing exactly what I’ll think today and tomorrow and always.
BUT DANG DO I LOVE TO SEE THE WORLD.
Adventures beyond my doors are so interesting. It’s an addiction. I must see it all. I have to meet the people. I gotta eat all the food.
Thailand, Taiwan, Denmark– each so rich in culture. I am so grateful that in my life I am able to travel and see the world. I want to share my experiences with the world. I hope it can be accomplished through my writing.
In the next couple of months, I hope to learn the perspectives in which other people see the world. By learning about the impact of society on travel, I wonder if my own adventures will evolve. I also hope to improve my writing skills and gain confidence in what I produce.
I am not confident in my writing. Like I stated at the top, writing is my greatest fear. So I hope I can defeat it.
Over last decade, I have determined a major reason of my lack of confidence. I think growing up with English as my second language made me feel like I was constantly behind my peers. I was born In Taiwan and shorty after my birth, I was brought to the United States. Despite growing up in the United States, my exposure to English was extremely limited. Going to preschool I faced difficulty communicating with other kids. I spoke Chinese at home and knew no English. Going through elementary school, learning English was so difficult that I feared writing. I didn’t trust my skills and never thought my English was adequate enough to write something good. Even making it through high school, I still doubt my abilities. My goal for the near future is to become more comfortable with writing and sharing my thoughts through words.
I look forward to improving my writing 🙂
Beyond My Door 
